Monday, January 17, 2011

Days Untold

It has been a while since I "penned". Ventures untold are usually the ones which I keep hidden in the background away from the prying eyes of the world. A lot happened over the last one year, I lost some important people, whose absence is felt every day with a pang. I have grown bigger with the year but also shorter with regard to many a thing in life.

Working for a tax firm, though for wealth firangis and nothing to do with the 'aam junta" of my land, one learns the art of measuring each day by hours. The good old 24 hour a day clock still works, but a professional services firm, instills a complete new picture about hours and minutes of a day. 8 Hours in an office with loads of gray cells wasted and always wondering whether the 8 hours gonna be dragged and still wondering what to do if it doesn't.

Sleep takes a back stage, since my sleep hormones works like a switch. I could turn it on, any time, any where, what ever the environment be, from hard metal parties to the silence of my one bedroom apartment. 6 Months working like Madam Curie, attending tax returns while they called for me, catching sleep sitting on uncomfortable chairs, eating bleak grub from the weirdest and dirtiest of places and lying on bed on Saturday mornings wondering what to do once I have to leave the comfort of my bed. Most questions are answered, but then there are some which stays inside you, like how you feel while nursing a hangover, the booze is not present, but the sting is. No matter what one does, the feeling stays and the only healer is time. The demon questions for me is - "Where is my life heading? What the fuck am I doing with my life?"


2 comments:

  1. very well said. Your blog was recommended by a common friend I guess. The feeling you have penned down is a feeling I live with every day, since 2005 (since i moved here and have been serving the useless firangs). Though my specialization and job is very different from yours, the whole feeling of wasting the precious 8 hrs kills me every day and the demon question haunts me to the point that it is claustrophobic at times to even breathe. Like the title of your blog page as well.

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  2. and joe is followin you and nt the referrer.. Life is a bitch..! jus kiddin.. :P

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